Thursday, September 8, 2011

Panic attacks and other divorce related things.

There are nights when my chest gets tight, and I can't breathe, and I feel like my legs won't carry me upstairs to my bed.

There are days when I just want to throw in the towel, ask him what he wants from me. What else could I possibly give?

Throwing in the towel is just too tempting. I can't take being kicked while I'm down one more time. I can't take another abusive phone call, or another appointment with my lawyer. I can't take one more minute of staying strong for the kids, and I can't take another exhausting tantrum that I'm left to man alone.

I just want to run.

1 comment:

  1. Don't let him control you like that! It's easy to say but hard to do. I still have to remind myself not to let someone control my life! One day at a time :)